Wednesday, January 20, 2016

love

I've been wanting to sit and share a bunch of thoughts, but a certain someone doesn't give me any large chunks of time to work with, so I'll have to just quickly jot down one thing.  :)

Logically I've always known "it won't last forever", but it's really sinking in now.  I don't know if it's Caleb and Logan getting older and going to school, or having my last baby that's bringing it on.  Anyways, I've really been enjoying each of the kids much more lately.  (We still have our "moments"!!!)  This morning as Logan was walking in to school he turned and blew me a kiss - how much longer do I have before he's too grown up for that??  And, last night during our church business meeting he wrote me a note that said, "I love mom. Do you love Logan?"  The smile on his face and look in his eye when I wrote back, "Yes!" was absolutely priceless.  And, while Levi was eating his lunch today (and I was feeding Jackson), he ran over and said "Mom!  Feel my muscles!"  This often happens during mealtimes, but of course it struck me that someday he's not going to do that anymore. I can keep thinking of examples...Caleb running up from the basement to report how their game of Pig is going, Jackson smiling at me...  These are the little things that make up life with little boys, and I just want to soak it all up.

Monday, January 4, 2016

star

Levi's Sunday School teacher wrote down something he said in class yesterday.  I guess they were talking about wise men following the star, and he said, "We can follow Jesus without a star."  :)  That kid comes up with some really good stuff, I wish I could write it all down!

This morning was Jackson's two month appointment.  He weighed almost 13 pounds, which I believe was the 67th percentile, and I don't remember what his length was, but I think it was around the 88th percentile.  He's healthy and growing as he should!  Despite not napping well...  :)  He got a few shots today, didn't take TOO long to calm down afterwards.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

rollin'

Yesterday was Jackson's two month birthday, and he rolled over three times! He rolled over once weeks ago, I figured that was a fluke. But, last night we were at the Steenwyk Christmas party at my parent's house and he did it three times, one right after the other. My Aunt Mary was a witness, so it's totally legit.  :)  Of course, right after that I moved him over by Mike so he could hopefully see him do it, but instead Jackson just got tired and fell asleep.

And, he had a decent night last night!  He slept for about 7.5 hours.  Hoping this is the start of a new trend, but who knows.  He had a good night two weeks ago, too, but then hasn't done well since.  I'm improving on accepting the fact that he just doesn't nap much.  If we're out and about and he's in his car seat he'll nap pretty well, but at home it's about 30 minutes...


Sunday, December 27, 2015

secret

The other night the boys drew names to get each other Christmas presents.  At bedtime Mike was tucking in Levi and asked him if he had thought about what to get Caleb.  Levi pulled his thumb out of his mouth, and with a big smile whispered in Mike's ear, "I'm going to get him a tractor, and wagon, and combine."  Knowing those are all things he would want for himself, Mike said, "Really?  That's what you want to get Caleb?"  With a big grin Levi replied in a loud whisper, "Yeah, but you know he has to share!" and put his fingers up to his lips "shhhh.....!"  This kid!  He is something else!

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

almost christmas

Guess who hasn't had time to update the blog?!  The last 7 weeks have been a blur that mostly revolves around feeding Jackson.  And, when I'm not feeding him the other people in the family want to eat/have clothes to wear/etc!  :)  It's been rather challenging to balance it all - I am soooooooo very thankful that it is Mike's slow season, and that I am married to a man that loves being involved at home.  I'm already exhausted, I don't know how I would function if I had to do it all on my own!

Jackson finally had a decent night last night.  He ate at about 10pm and then 5:30am, and actually slept without fussing in between.  He's been fine going that stretch without eating for a while now, but I would be up several times settling him down.  Really hoping last night was the start of a new trend - a good night's sleep makes all the difference for me!  Jackson's been a little congested for a couple weeks (thank you, big brothers!), but thankfully nothing serious.  He's obviously growing - I can see it, and on our scale at home today he weighed in at a whopping 13.5 lbs!  He mostly eats well, minimal spitting up (it does happen, but seems like practically nothing after Levi), and he doesn't seem to have as much trouble with gas as he did early on (He's got plenty of it, but usually doesn't have trouble getting it out...).  He has times where he's quite alert (love the smiles we're getting), but he still has super sleepy times.  At the moment he's sleeping in his crib (and has been for over an hour), which it kinda huge because he's mostly only been happy in the bouncy seat.

In other news...  Caleb has a broken pinky.  :(  Two weeks ago Caleb and Logan were running down the hall, Caleb tripped, Logan stepped on his hand, and that's when the break must have happened, but we didn't discover it until a few days ago.  He complained some of it hurting the night it happened, but he wasn't in terrible pain, and we didn't hear much about it after that.  A few nights ago he mentioned it getting hurt while they were playing, and when we looked at it we noticed it was quite swollen and he couldn't bend it good.  X-rays at the dr yesterday showed a break.  The surgeon we met with today decided not to do surgery because after the healing that's already taken place, going in and re-breaking and setting it would do more harm than good.  The finger is a little crooked when he bends it, but not bad enough to cause any issues.  He'll be in a splint for awhile.

A few nights ago after family devotions Mike asked the boys if there was anything they wished they were good at.  Logan said something to describe figure skating - I wish I could remember what it was, it was cute...and then he also described it "like a wedding on ice".  :)  More and more Logan likes to spend time coloring and he really puts thought and effort into his drawings, it's fun to see.

Levi continues to crack us up with the things he says and does.  Wish I could record it all!  He still loves being a big helper and bringing diapers to the trash for us.  (This is something that still causes some fights between the boys.)  Levi loves wearing his Star Wars Stormtrooper costume around the house.  And, when Caleb and Logan are at school, he does a good job protecting me here at home.  :)

Saturday, November 14, 2015

first week

We've been home from the hospital for just over a week now, and I'm still not sure if we're capable of handling four children.  :)  This next week will be the true test as I start driving again and have to get all four out the door to get Caleb and Logan to school on time, and then picked up on time at the end of the day, too!

The first few nights home with Jackson were pretty rough.  Almost no sleep between feedings.  He was dealing with spitting up (there was one projectile incident) and was gassy.  He wasn't very good at burping, but has since improved (we still have some trouble here and there).  A few nights ago I started giving him a bottle of formula for his nighttime feedings, and things are much improved!  The last couple nights he's only gotten up once to eat.  He seems to handle nursing fine during the day, so I hope that continues - I'm fine with doing some bottles and formula, but don't want to completely give up nursing!  He can be pretty inconsolable during the evening hours still, though, so I've got to decide whether to give him a bottle sooner...  Our first few nights home Mike and I were at a loss as to how to calm Jackson down and what to do - we found it humorous that we felt so clueless with our fourth child, isn't it supposed to get easier??  :)

It's definitely been an adjustment for Caleb, Logan, and Levi.  I think for the most part they are handling it fine, but there has been some acting out and behavior issues.  Caleb will randomly burst into tears over practically nothing (and many times it's clearly not real tears the way he can turn them on and off...), Logan is overboard with the backtalking (I almost need a whole separate post to get into that), and Levi can get pretty stubborn when he doesn't want to do something you're telling him to do!

On Monday, Jackson had his first doctor appointment.  We took all four boys since Caleb, Logan, and Levi were also due for their second flu shot.  Boy, was I sweating by the end of that appointment!!  Jackson weighed in at 7 lb 14 oz (47th percentile), which is a normal amount to be down from his birth weight.  He was not a happy camper when the doctor had to look him over - what a pleasant experience to be in a small room with four young children, one of which is a screaming newborn, and three adults...  It got even better when Levi had to get his shot.  Things did not go as well as the first time around, that's for sure!  He was a little worried about it this time since he knew what to expect, plus I think what set him off was he saw some blood when Logan got his shot (he had his arm tensed).  He started SCREAMING and was not going to sit still for the shot.  I'm so glad Mike was there to help hold him down.  The nurse ended up giving it to him in his leg, saying it wouldn't hurt quite as much as his arm.  He made sure to tell me later that it wasn't any better in his leg and it still did hurt.  :)

On Thursday, Caleb and Logan had a half day of school and they had a pajama party in their class!  They were so excited to go to school in their pj's.  They could also take a stuffed animal along.  Logan took Captain Mark the Shark (his giant shark that was a perfect pregnancy pillow for me), and Caleb took Batman Sam (because he wore his Batman pj's and Batman slippers).  This coming week they have their first field trip, I'm sure they will be excited about that.  I wish I could go along, but we cannot take other children along for this, and I'm not about to leave Jackson behind for a whole day just yet!

Thursday evening we went out to eat for the first time with all six of us.  Caleb and Logan each earned a free personal pan pizza for reading in October (so, really, Mike and I earned it...).  After supper we paid a visit to Grandma Krol at Sunset Manor.  Her mental health is failing, so it was an interesting visit, but the boys handled it well.  She asked probably ten times how old Jackson is, and was so surprised every time when we said he was one week.  And, she asked Levi about as many times if he liked his new brother.  He answered normal every time up until the last time we could tell he was a little exasperated, but thankfully I don't think Grandma picked up on that.  :)  After leaving Sunset, Mike and I were discussing when we could get over to visit my Grandma Tiemeyer at her new place, possibly even this weekend, then I got an email from my mom saying she was coming this way with a couple of my aunts yesterday!  So, it worked out for us to meet up with them for a bit at lunchtime and we had a very nice visit.  Somehow she ended up showing off for the boys how she can touch her tongue to her nose, and we all had a good laugh over watching them try to do it.  :)

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

jackson

Well, if there's one thing I've learned in life over the last 11 years of our marriage, it's that things do not go as planned!  Well, not as WE plan them anyways.  :)

Backing up to last weekend, we had a really nice time together as a family.  Friday was a beautiful day, and we took the boys trick-or-treating downtown Zeeland with Eric, Lea Anne, Boden, and Heidi.  Saturday was cold and rainy, and we took the boys trick-or-treating to Grandpa and Grandma VanBeek's, and to the Candy Land event at our church.  They were so excited about their Star Wars costumes, it was fun to watch them!  Caleb was Darth Vader, Logan was Luke Skywalker, and Levi was a Storm Trooper.  Logan and Levi especially have been dressing up in their costumes a lot at home, so I think they were a worthwhile investment!

Throughout the weekend we did things around the house to get ready to head to the hospital on Tuesday.  Of course, I was planning to have Monday yet for some final cleaning and packing.  I felt good and wouldn't hardly know it was time to have a baby if it weren't for the calendar saying so!  Sunday night I got a decent night's sleep, I think had a few contractions in the evening, nothing major.

Monday morning when I got up I was having some contractions, but again, nothing major.  They were irregular and not terribly strong so I didn't really think much of it and went about my normal business of getting Caleb and Logan to school, and then cleaning the house and such to prepare for going to the hospital the next day.  After a couple hours of the contractions continuing I thought maybe I should start timing them, but I still didn't think anything was really happening.  They were in general 3-4 minutes apart, so I thought just in case I'd better keep plugging away at my to-do list in case we would be heading to the hospital sooner than expected!  Well, I still didn't have enough time.  :)  Things ended up happening kinda fast.  My friend Amy had stopped in just for a bit, and while she was there things intensified and she convinced me I should call my doctor.  Since I'd never gone into labor on my own before, I was just so shocked that this could actually be happening!  So, about 11:30am I called the doctor's office, they said to head to the hospital to get checked out, but that it might not change the plan for the next day.  It didn't take long for me to know this baby wasn't going to wait until the next day and that he was definitely on his way - contractions were getting stronger and stronger!  I called Mike at work and told him we were going to head to the hospital to get checked out.  I didn't do a very good job expressing my sense of urgency, though, because when he got home and asked if he had time to shower I just about flipped.  He did have time, though, because we had to wait for his mom and stepdad to come for Levi.  :)  Once they got there I gave quick instructions about where to find the boys' clothes (since getting their bags packed was one of the things I didn't get to!), but then we were on our way.  I'm so thankful the hospital is close - not that the baby was coming that quick, it just would have been miserable to be in the truck for longer.

When we got to the hospital Mike dropped me off at the doors, and his cousin's wife just happened to be right there.  Crazy because she just had a baby there the week before and knew I was scheduled for the next day.  I had to sit down for a contraction while waiting for Mike, and a hospital worker saw me and got a wheelchair.  We headed upstairs to the Family Birth Center and they were ready for us and got us right to a room.  I had to get changed, and of course, all of this was complicated by ever-strengthening contractions that were worse when I moved.  So, I was checked into the hospital about 12:30pm, the doctor was there almost right away, checked me, and decided we'd better go ahead right away with the c-section!  (I was 2cm/90% effaced)  I was really wanting some drugs to help with the pain, but an epidural wouldn't work any quicker than just waiting for the spinal in surgery, and they offered me Staydol to take the edge off, but that makes you loopy and I really wanted to be clear-headed for the delivery.  So, I gritted my teeth, squeezed Mike's hand, and made it.  It was especially hard once I was down in surgery - Mike wasn't allowed in while they were prepping me, and I kept having contractions while they were giving me the spinal.  What blessed relief when it took effect!  More power to the women who do drug-free deliveries, I don't feel the need to be one of them.  :)

Once everything was ready to go, Mike was brought into the room.  It didn't take long before we had a baby born!  (At 2:01pm.) Mike actually peeked over the curtain, which I was pretty surprised about.  And, this delivery was different from Levi's in that I hardly felt them take the baby out (perhaps because he was 3 lbs smaller???).  Somebody said, "It's a boy!" and thankfully, it didn't take very long before I got to hear that wonderful cry.  Mike was able to go over and cut the cord, and after a few minutes bring him over to see me while they were still getting me put back together.  We had several minutes together, and we did talk about names, but didn't make a decision at that point yet.  After they were done with me, Mike was brought out and went upstairs to wait for us.  The baby and I were brought to the recovery room, where I got to hold him for the first time and feed him.  So special!  It was very hard for me after Levi's delivery to be separated from him while I was in recovery.  Another difference in those two deliveries is that after Levi's I had the shakes something terrible, but this time I felt great.  I'm sure it helped to not be going into this delivery completely exhausted!

After about 45 minutes we were brought back upstairs to be with Mike and have the baby weighed, etc.  We were all dying to know his weight after having an 11-pounder last time.  :)  Mike and I also took another minute to discuss names, and decided on Jackson David.  Jackson weighed in at a peanuty 8 lbs 6 oz.  Seemed so small to me!  Pretty soon after that the grandparents were there to meet Jackson.  Mike's mom and stepdad had brought Caleb, Logan, and Levi, so Mike brought them in first to tell them they now have a little brother and to meet him.  Then it was the grandparent's turn to find out they had another grandSON.  We were busy letting other people know about Jackson's birth as well.  We had a few visitors that day and the next.  Mike and I enjoyed the peacefulness of being at the hospital before heading home to reality.  I really have been healing well and feeling great - I am so thankful that I felt good right up to the end of the pregnancy, and am now quickly recovering from the c-section.

We are thrilled to have added another boy to our bunch, and are so thankful to God for a safe delivery and healthy baby!